WOW!!!! Finallyyyy... :) after the long wait, now it's the time
Your big day is coming!!!
First of all i would like to say CONGRATULATION for both of you..
knowing you guys is one of my best ever journey in my life..
Ko, time flies and changes now. in the past we always playing around, and now, look at you!!! we are getting older dude.. haha.. Thx you ko for being the best brother for me!!! yah mskipun sometimes i always make you angry n annoyed, I will always remember all thing that you taught me.
Ciciiii.. even though we know each other only for a few years, its great to share with you!!! you know i always dream of having a brother and sister older than me, and guess what!! both of u are!! hahaha,,,, Thank you for being the best sister for me. your words, idea, critics always helping me.. mungkin sometimes cici annoyed ya for I'm always following you n koko around (sometimes loh ci :p hahaha), but don't be ya ci :) you and koko are the best best that i ever had!!
and finally, for koko and cici, after married, still remember me yaaa,,,, hehehe,,, for both of you, treat each other carefully.. love is not long lasting, but commitment is. there is always solution for problem. mind your anger :) bole berantem but before the sunset, ud harus baikan!!! remember the sweet memory that you guys have gone through. it will bring back the sweetness of life and love. don't ask to be understand but try to understand your partner... cici, i share you my fave verse that i reserve for my future wife (Proverbs 31:10-31) :D
lastly, allowed me to say, Happy Wedding and Congratulations Mr n Mrs Hendra Wijaya :)
“(28) Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. (29) Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls.” Matthew 11:28-29
In our life, we always faced difficulty. Small or big, easy or hard to handle, continuously or seldom, they always come. They peek and get ready to “attack” us as soon as they can. So what we should do when the problem is coming and “attack”?
1. Be Strong
We, as young men of God, must remember that we are strong, because the Lord makes us strong. It is clearly stated that every problem that we are facing is not bigger than our strength. “1 Cor 10:13”. Therefore why should we afraid of? Some youngster tends to find alternative when they are facing a problem. Some of them going to the club, get drunk, while the other “plays” with drugs. The current lifestyle for Christians, if they have problems, they will runaway from it. They know they can’t go to club, took any drugs, or do any sinful things, therefore, they just runaway from it.Tell me, how can those things solve a problem? It just shows that we are weak. Then what should we do? FACE it!!! Remember 1 Cor 10:13
2. Surrender
How to surrender to God? (Matthew 11:28). I already put it unto God, but the problem still there. The question is not how to surrender, but after we surrender, do we have any action to end the problem? Surrender to God means while we are weary and burden, He gives us a place for rest. Lets take an example on a Young Men who lived in a mountain and are deemed to bring water from a lake.At first, it seems there would not be any problem. The road is slopping down and makes him easy to walk. He brings 2 empty buckets, so there won’t be any problem at all. He fills the buckets with water, and now, its time for him to go home. Problems start coming one by one. The buckets are heavy now. And the roads is slopping up, and even make him harder to go up. In the half way through his home, there is a small gazebo, and he stops, sits and rests there. After that, did he just leave the bucket there? No, he carried it back until he reach home.We always think after we surrender, then everything will be okay and the problem will go by itself. No it’s not that way. Problem wont go away unless we end it. But while we are tired and we are exhausted, God gave us a place and tell us to surrender.
So, in short, remember these two verses whenever we feel weak facing our problems
Matthew 11:28
1 Cor 10:13
Words of God are a healer and cooler for our souls
"...I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah And I hate that I made you think, that the trust we had is broken So don't tell me you can't forgive me Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect..." That is a glimpse of Jessie J song.. Currently, i'm really feeling not well...
I just talk to her about what i feel.. i said that well, i don't feel about doing LD, and don't think to continuing this...
i explain a lot of things, and she keep asking question and finally she said that i'm a pessimistic and unconfident... i'm not tell her the truth that actually i feel annoyed with her demand (since i keep her feelings)
this is my story in Bahasa... dont want to translate it, just want to have a curcol aj..
kan kemaren2 waktu di sg, kita smpet bbman, trs dia blg lah, kalo tgl 17 itu sodaranya ad yg tukeran baki.. trus dia nanya, ad acara ga?? klo ga, mau ke bandung jalan2 ga? aku ya mikir boleh loh, kan memang ga ad acara.. trus pas balik indo, hari sabtunya tgl 16, kan kita memang ad seminar (and aku ud ngerasa kalo dia emg ud mulai ad feeling sama aku) trs aku ya nanya, hari minggu mau jalan jam berapa.. trs dia blg loh, jam 7.30 an aj.. trs aku nanya loh, acaranya jam brp? dia blg jam 11, trs dia ngomong deket sana ad mal, tmpt makan juga, jadi aku bsa nunggu disana for 2 hours.. akulah jadi mikir, kok kayak supir ya... trs aku ga blg apa2 loh... trs seminar.. abs seminar, makan, n abs makan aku merasa ga enak badan... trs aku skalian diskus lah blg, ga jadi ke bandung deh.. soalnya lgi sakit juga (suara bener2 berubah sblm seminar) jadi bisa pake alasan itu... ud gitu dia blg ok loh.. nah trs, abs makan, kan sama anak2 JPCC, mereka ga tau mau kemana, jdi kita ikut loh.. pas lagi ngafe, aku sakit kepala, and kita duduk 3 jam-an dsana.. i'm basically doing nothing, and not doing anything.. trs finally, kita ntn movie berdua (aku ud blg sakit kepala, dia nanya mau plg, aku blg ga lah, nanti aj) n makan. nah, dia suruh aku plih makan.. karna ud sakit kepala, aku pilih food studio loh, kaya food court gtu.. cuman pas aku nanya dia, dia blg ga mau, trs aku tanya mau apa, dia blg ga tau.. and finally akhirnya ttp food studio and dia nanya aku mau makan apa, aku blg makan baso, and aku tanya dia mau makan apa, dia blg ga makan deh, minum quikie bubble tea.. x_x... even dia rasanya ga care aku mau makan ap dlm kondisi gtu.. and dia cuman comen, jdi kita seharian di senayan city?? dan aku tanya, mau makan kemana (its 8 pm) and you can choose.. trus dia blg, ga usah deh... plg aku anterin, trs dimobil nothing deep conversation and just a nrmal conversation and she is arrive safely... aku plg ke cikarang (sakit kepala malem2) trs sampe rumah masih bbm bentar, and dia blg dia kirim aku email... ini isi emailnya
Dear Deny,
Thank you for today.. Nice to meet you after a while..
I don't know whether u feel it/not.. But to be honest.. A bit of
dissappointment came @the end of the day.. I expected quality time
with u today--especially because we cancelled our plan for tomorrow n
u already knew that we will only have little time until u back again
to sing.. Too bad, u didn't prepare any plan or substitution plan for
me today or tomorrow/whenever..
U even haven't asked me about what happened yesterday.. Again... =(
Should I think that u don't care..??
Fyi, if we go together tomorrow, I already planned to have a 4-5 hours
of nice conversation with u that can't be replaced by phone calls.. I
was excited.. But now it's gone..
Well.. I know that u're unhealthy.. And I didn't blame u for
cancelling tomorrow.. I was just expecting more from u..
Have a good rest.. Get well soon.. Nite..
Happy Sunday..
Yours sincerely,
Shiela
aku baca yah susah mau balesnya juga.. cuman aku tau loh, kalo dia agak egois rasanya.. aku ya mikir, kok jadi kayak supirnya trs nunggu 2 jam, in return i give you 4-5 hours of quality time... knapa dia ga initiate? why must me? i know she is shy, tpi knp ga think that way too?? trs hari minggu aku ke gerja, tanpa dia, and i feel wow, never feel happy like this... and at the end, tadi aku ajak dia ngomong.. cuman aku alesannya LD.. but, you know what, she just ask so many question and i just become more ilfil, trs dia blg if i feel kayak aku ud ga ngerasa ngejer dia lagi, mendingan bilang aj.. but she will feel rejected by me.. well i just stick to my "stry" on LD.. trs at car, she says too kayak well most of the guys who want to me my friends only, regret it, and there is no 2nd chance... i told my self and say, well i wont even ask for 2nd chance... trus dia blg lah, kalo dia capek punya banyak temen co, tpi ga ad apa2nya.. dia rada curhat juga (and i feel bad) but this is my decision... trs dia blg, well you better think again, kita kasih dateline tgl 31.. aku just follow her plan aj.. and on 31, aku say that lets just finish for once and all..
I went to Batam on 21 April 2011 - 23 April 2011 for MDC Church Retreat (Singapore)
Day 1: 21 April 2011
Went to the airport together with Reggie and Papi Andi using citilink 11.35 AM. unfortunately, i got message stating that our flight get delayed for 1 hour and 10 minutes since the plane from Padang isn't arrived yet.
then we make our way to PIK, to have our lunch at Seven to 7 Steak house.
after that, we headed back to airport to catch our flight.
my seat quite bad, cos we are seating in emergency seat, and the chair can't be leverage to the back. try to adapt with the chair and i manage to sleep for 1 hour ++.
Arriving at Batam, we are picked up my Ps. David S and head to MegaMal Batam, near batam center. Then we go to KTM and having our session started.
This retreat theme is Victory. Why victory? Because Jesus had died on the cross and He has given us Victory to walk with Him. Yeah, Victory in everything we do!!
The retreat are consist of 5 sessions that are being preached by Ps. Guan and Ps. Hadiarso.
First session, Ko Guan encourage us to Listen to the Voice of God. If we listen to it, miracle will happen. Remember the story of Peter who walks on the water? What are the 1st thing he hear? God talk to Him, come here. Then peter can walk.. Do you think peter can walk, if god say nothing? I don't think so. Why? Because by listening to His voice and Walks with Him, then miracle happens.
Second session talking about drawing near to God. God never move. Then why sometimes we can feel God so far away? It is us that moving. Not God. 3 way to closer to god
1. Clarified vision, to help us focus
2. Sanctified Passion, a pure heart moves
God's hands (2 Chron 16:9)
3. Max potential
The potential God puts in us is greater
than what we think (gen 1:26-27)
3rd session talking about personal experience with God (John 9:1)
We must have personal experience so we can worship Him whole heart... For example, Moses is being thrown away by his family, but he has personal experience with god, and he can admit his situation and he even become one of the most powerful people at that time. David, the youngest and smallest but God use him to defeat Goliath.
Season 4 is all about holy spirit. Some of us receive holy spirit baptism, and this is the most interesting session, as some of us have been waiting for this.
Session 5, talking bout are we in God Mind? The answer is Yes, we are. So don't you worry about everything. Even the bird in the sky, the flower in fields, god take care of it. So, don't you worry about it.
After all this session, on day two, we have a guest from Yayasan Baptis orphanage. We are playing with them, have fun together and eat together until 9.45 pm, and it time for them to back home.
swing swing..
catch me if you can
a monk sitting on my neck.. haha
playing cat and mouse
After Baptism
Keren Baptism
looking for a monkey
Playing with the kids
verdyka baptism
Finally, on the last day, we have baptism session, and let's we give a clap of hand for our new born friends, Keren n Verdyka!!! Good job guys. Both of u just practicing how to gain victory in your life. And for you IMAGERS, are you ready to take a step forward to take walk with the victory that God has given to us??
"God is our victory, God is our victory, sing it again, sing it again" -trueworshippers
well, i'm in the office, and when i'm thinking about her, my iTunes suddenly tuning this song called especially for you.. hahaha..
Especially for you... My Princess :)
Especially for you :)
"Especially for you
I wanna let you know what I was going through
All the time we were apart I thought of you
You were in my heart
My love never changed
I still feel the same
Especially for you I wanna tell you I was feeling that way too And if dreams were wings, you know
I would have flown to you To be where you are
No matter how far And now that I'm next to you
No more dreaming about tomorrow Forget the loneliness and the sorrow
I've got to say It's all because of you
And now we're back together, together I wanna show you my heart is oh so true And all the love I have is Especially for you
Especially for you
I wanna tell you, you mean all the world to me How I'm certain that our love was meant to be You changed my life
You showed me the way And now that I'm next to you
I've waited long enough to find you I wanna put all the hurt behind you Oh, And I wanna bring out all the love inside you, Oh
You were in my heart
My love never changed"
Well, this all what i've been feel lately :) and this song is ESPECIALLY FOR YOU
This morning i went to JPCC (Jakarta Praise Community Church).
The Pastor today is Jose Carol, and he is preaching about WORSHIP.
Worship
Revelation 22:1 1 Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb
1. W = hom are we worshipping
whoare we worshiping??? we must focus on 1things, which is God.
2. O = ffering
Exodus 23:15 "Celebrate the Feast of Unleavened Bread; for seven days eat bread made without yeast, as I commanded you. Do this at the appointed time in the month of Abib, for in that month you came out of Egypt. "No one is to appear before me empty-handed."
Psalm 96:8
"Ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name; bring an offering and come into his courts."
We must remember that to worship Him, we must bring offering. what kind of offering? our heart.
3. R = Revelation
Without personal experience, worship will be an obligation. why? because without personal experience, we will not have feeling towards God. Same as if we are going into relationship, the more personal experience (Quality time, talking heart to heart) we have, the more intimate we will be, and we wont feel that we obligate to do all the things.
4. S = acrifice Rome 12:1-2 "1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."
What kind of sacrifice that we should bring?? our body and life as a living sacrifice :)
5. H = onour Worship is originated from Yunani, "Proscuneo"
means, licking, like a dog lick his master hand.
The point is, to worship we must have a good attitude, that are come from your heart. not only the action, but also from the heart.
6. I = ntimacy
Proverbs 3:6 "In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." 7. P = Presence Just remember that, God presence is everywhere. don't try to put God in a box, since He can't be boxed and He can appeared anytime, anywhere
Today, i'm going to Kedoya Apartement and attending Financial Seminar (My 2nd Date though =D)
i'm going with her :), talking and share a lot of things.
She is a nice girl.. her smile melt my heart... :)
Once arrived there, i walked with her, and i saw her friends staring at us and watch us while we are walking to there. Quite nervous, since this is the first time i met her friends too.. but talking to her make me more nervous x_x.. hahaha
after done, we are heading to UOB Plaza, but before, we have lunch at La P-----. (forget the name) and then we headed to UOB Plaza. after thath, i'm going to GI to meet Ci Syerly.
from there, i pick her up from UOB Plasa, and send her home.
Later on, we go eat at Pluit Sakti with reggie n jess and do some foot reflexion until 11.30 pm. haha..
before i go to bed, i called her, and yes, i'm nervous, and while talking to her, my heart beat so fast.. why?? ....... haha
but i'm happy today.. and must be sleeping very safe and sound and ... :)
Last 2 Months, i keep listening to this song at night.. the lyric is simple.
"In You there is forgiveness In forgiveness there is love In love there is a meaning In meaning there is a purpose To worship you, to worship you To lift up, Your name high above all things.. Your love is above everything i aim Is above all that I can say, And above all that will remain"
from this song, i learn 3 things that I need to improve.
1. Forgiveness
In Him, there are always FORGIVENESS, no matter how bad the sin we had made, He will be there to forgive us as long as we ask for it..
When forgive is hard to say
In real life, it not easy for us to forgive our friends. How can we forgive when it hurt so much??
The one and only thing that we can do at first is Praying. with praying, we can calm our self down, and make us think clearly.
Think that we have been forgiven by Him. He never met us, but still He forgive us. why it should be hard to forgive?
I remember, there is a reality show in Indonesia, the title is "Susahnya Minta Maaf" (How hard to say I'm Sorry). They make the client (the one that being accused) to meet the victim (The person that don't want to forgive the client). There is a story where the client beg and beg, but still the victim is not forgiving her. The main problem is all about backstabbing. Judas did backstabbing Jesus until He died, didn't he? But still, Jesus forgive Him. So why can't we??
I know, forgive is not easy. even i'm still on the process of forgiving while writing this article. so lets we learn together :)
"The true forgiveness is not merely saying i am forgiving you, but more in your action that saying you forgive them :)"
Colossians 3:13 Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. (NIV)
L O V E
2. Love
God ask us to love one another. InMatthew 5:44 "But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you"
its clearly said that, LOVE your enemy. LOVE each another of you.. if we are talking about love, its too general, but here, i would like to share about a love, a love that can make people forgive, a love that can make people care about others.
I LOVE YOU is a simple words that come from our mouth if we love someone. but the main problem is, can we say I LOVE YOU towards people that we hate? the most simple example, can we say I LOVE YOU to our friends that gossiping us in front of other people? can we say I LOVE YOU to a friend that angel when with us, but devil in our back?
Well, that is what we should learn about LOVE.
Remember, Love is come from your heart. its all the matter of the heart.
3. Worship
Finally, the last thing that i need to improve is Worship. Why worship? for me, by worshiping, I can express my feeling to God. By worshiping, i feel comfort to tell God everything. all my burden, all my feeling, through prayer.
Where can you get the love to forgive? In Jesus.
How? Worship Him!!! :)
That are the things that i need to improve in my life, in order for me to closer to God. Well, everything are easy to be said, but hard to be done. But when there is a will, there will be a way :)
2 days ago, i watched Glee season 2. There is a song, titled Get It Right.
here is the lyrics
What have I done? I wish I could
Away from this ship goin' under
Just tryin' to help, hurt everyone
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
So I throw up my fist
I will punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see
How much I care!
looking back at the lyric, sometimes it is true. we just want to help anybody that we care and know. But somehow, when we are thinking that the things we had done are right and good, at the end it become a nightmare that haunt us. (what can we do, when the good isn't good enough? When all that you touch tumbles down? 'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things) we often feel that right? the more good we think, sometimes its come out worse than what we never imagine. i have faced that a few times... well, it's hard though and sometimes i feel like, what the hell is happening?? i don't mean that way, but all i can do is SILENT.. silent and receive the blame from the people that i had hurt... well that is life.. no problems means we are dead...
i have a story for this example.
There is a family of four. The Father, just bought a brand new car yesterday. The father, promise their children that on Sunday afternoon, he will bring them to the park using the new car.
the youngest son, very excited about the planning and waiting for the Sunday to come. On sunday morning, the youngest son look at the car, and ask his dad, "daddy, before we go to the park, can i wash the car first?"
the father looking at the watch and see that it is still early in the morning. In his mind, he say "still early in the morning, and we still have time, why not?" and the father answer him "Yes dear, you can do that. but be careful!" and smiling to him. His son smiling and said "thank you , daddy!!"
The youngest son, started to get busy. he is looking for the car wash soap, bucket and fill it water. then he remember that he forget the car washcloth. he is looking at anywhere, and he couldn't find one. Finally, he remembered that his mom used an iron fiber dish wash to clean the dirt on the pan. so he take it, and use it.
washing, rubbing the car
He is so happy washing the new car, with all of his strength, he clean the car, use a soap, rub the car... and now its time to hose the car. and when he hose the car......
for his surprise, the car is not as smooth as the first time. it is full of scratch.. he is forget that, the iron fiber only can be used for dish washing only. He is so surprised and afraid, that he barely do anything.
He pull up his courage, and come to his dad, and slowly and softly say "Dad, i have something to show you.."
"What darling? the car must be very clean now." said the father.
"Daddy, come with me, i have something to show you.." grabbing his dad hand.
"I know it son. the car must be very clean right now" said the father
"No, you must come with me" pulling his dad and start to cry.
daddy shocked
The father confuse, then come with him and when he see the car, he can't imagine the car that he bought yesterday looks like a mess... he is shock that he can barely speak. everything come up to his mind. the credit that he just take, the car that only 1 day old, the insurance that most possibly wont cover it, and he is really mad at his son and saying in his mind "why on earth should i let him wash the car!!". He look at his crying son, and he is at the boiling point, and ready to mad at him. Suddenly, he turn his back and walk to his room. Inside, he is crying and praying to God.
Scratch on the car
God remind him to forgive his son. He is having a good intention, but the way he did it wrong. you have to appreciate the good intention, and teach how to do it. He come out from his room, he look at his crying son, and he hug him.
Daddy Hug his son
sometimes, we are tend to be like it too.. without knowing the right way, we do it in our own way..
we are tend to work this way "as long as i done, then finished." we don't think about the effect later on (after effect). we must remember, once we hurt people, it is like you nail on the wall, when you pull it out, the nail are gone, but the hole still there. yes, he or she might forgive you, but the hurt will still there, and only time can heal it.
nobody is perfect, and nobody will be right 100%, because if he/she is, then he/she must be God.
so, the point of this post is
1. we have to think twice and be careful before we do something
2. Do remember the right way. right intention without right attitude/right way = wrong
Valentine's Day is an annual commemoration held on February 14 celebrating love and affection between intimate companions.
Historical facts
Numerous early Christian martyrs were named Valentine. The Valentines honored on February 14 are Valentine of Rome (Valentinus presb. m. Romae) and Valentine of Terni (Valentinus ep. Interamnensis m. Romae). Valentine of Rome was a priest in Rome who was martyred about AD 269 and was buried on the Via Flaminia. His relics are at the Church of Saint Praxed in Rome, and at Whitefriar Street Carmelic Church in Dublin, Ireland.
The Catholic Encyclopedia also speaks of a third saint named Valentine who was mentioned in early martyrologies under date of February 14. He was martyred in Africa with a number of companions, but nothing more is known about him
No romantic elements are present in the original early medieval biographies of either of these martyrs. By the time a Saint Valentine became linked to romance in the 14th century, distinctions between Valentine of Rome and Valentine of Terni were utterly lost.
In the 1969 revision of the Roman Catholic Calendar of Saints , the feast day of Saint Valentine on February 14 was removed from the General Roman Calendar and relegated to particular (local or even national) calendars for the following reason: "Though the memorial of Saint Valentine is ancient, it is left to particular calendars, since, apart from his name, nothing is known of Saint Valentine except that he was buried on the Via Flaminia on February 14."The feast day is still celebrated in Balzan (Malta) where relics of the saint are claimed to be found, and also throughout the world by Traditionalist Catholic who follow the older, pre-Second Vatican Council calendar. February 14 is also celebrated as St Valentine's Day in other Christian denominations; it has, for example, the rank of 'commemoration' in the calendar of the Church of England and other parts of the Anglican Communion (Source; Wikipedia)
after that, i go to pick ko ivan flower up and meet regi, andi, and ko sandy at Sour Sally.
Ko Ivan order blue rose for Lulu as a valentine gift.
Gavin and I, took the flower from nana flower, and coincidentally, gavin wearing blue t-shirt and blue shoes.
The lady in the stores ask me whether i want to put the flower on the bag, and without a second thought i said YES!!!
The Flower
Why??
If i'm not put it in a bag, people will think that we might be a gay couple in which gavin wear all blue and give me the blue rose.. hahahahha..
after that, i go to Sour Sally and meet them, and there are a few more people there, and there are one people who get my attention most...
i don't know what it is, but surely i feel something ;)
well, we are planning to have valentine dinner on this thursday, and hopefully i can meet her and chit chat with her more..
Well, this is my another attempt to write a blog :D
hope that i have time to update the blog...
hand in hand to face the journey
why i give the title journey of life?
well, as all of us know that life is about a journey..
a journey from the moment you born till you die, journey that brings you tears, joys, problems, and growths, journey for a boy to be a man, journey for a girl to be a woman,
in fact, that is what life is full with... JOURNEY
Journey from boy to a man
so, with this... i should welcome all of us to my journey. a journal from my journey.
