...How Do You Want Me To Love You

Listening to youtube and find this song.. 

Where did you come from

Baby what's your name?
 
I gotta tell you something, Please let me explain

I'm the kind of man who could treat you right
 
Give you what you need girl every day, every night

Give me a reason, show me a sign
 
Just let me know that i'm not wasting my time
 
(wasting my time)
 
I'll give you all that you want, be your
 
Everything man (ahh)
 
You wish will be my command (your wish will be my
 
Command)

How do you want me to love you?
 
Take it fast, take it slow, baby let me know
 
How do you want me to love you
 
With my heart, with my soul
 
I'll take you anywhere you want to go

I look right through you, and you turn away
 
Tell me how much longer must we both play this game?
 
What's it gonna take now, i gotta make you see
 
We should be together girl, it's our destiny

You need a lover who can show you the way
 
If you've got a problem i can make it okay
 
Now that i've found you i can't let you go
 
So girl won't you just let me know

 
How do you want me to love you?
 
Take it fast, take it slow, baby let me know
 
How do you want me to love you?
 
With my heart, with my soul

hear this song, and i agree with the lyrics.. haha.. 

Take it fast, take it slow, baby let me know

I look right through you, and you turn awayTell me how much longer must we both play this game?

Give me a reason, show me a signJust let me know that i'm not wasting my time

just a though that.. hmmm.. *sigh.. 

speechless...

-dd- 

Nobody's Perfect

"...I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah
And I hate that I made you think, that the trust we had is broken
So don't tell me you can't forgive me
Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobody's perfect..."
That is a glimpse of Jessie J song.. 
Currently, i'm really feeling not well... 


I just talk to her about what i feel.. i said that well, i don't feel about doing LD, and don't think to continuing this...


i explain a lot of things, and she keep asking question and finally she said that i'm a pessimistic and unconfident... i'm not tell her the truth that actually i feel annoyed with her demand (since i keep her feelings)


this is my story in Bahasa... dont want to translate it, just want to have a curcol aj.. 



kan kemaren2 waktu di sg, kita smpet bbman, trs dia blg lah, kalo tgl 17 itu sodaranya ad yg tukeran baki.. trus dia nanya, ad acara ga?? klo ga, mau ke bandung jalan2 ga? aku ya mikir boleh loh, kan memang ga ad acara.. trus pas balik indo, hari sabtunya tgl 16, kan kita memang ad seminar (and aku ud ngerasa kalo dia emg ud mulai ad feeling sama aku) trs aku ya nanya, hari minggu mau jalan jam berapa.. trs dia blg loh, jam 7.30 an aj.. trs aku nanya loh, acaranya jam brp? dia blg jam 11, trs dia ngomong deket sana ad mal, tmpt makan juga, jadi aku bsa nunggu disana for 2 hours.. akulah jadi mikir, kok kayak supir ya... trs aku ga blg apa2 loh... trs seminar.. abs seminar, makan, n abs makan aku merasa ga enak badan... trs aku skalian diskus lah blg, ga jadi ke bandung deh.. soalnya lgi sakit juga (suara bener2 berubah sblm seminar) jadi bisa pake alasan itu... ud gitu dia blg ok loh.. nah trs, abs makan, kan sama anak2 JPCC, mereka ga tau mau kemana, jdi kita ikut loh.. pas lagi ngafe, aku sakit kepala, and kita duduk 3 jam-an dsana.. i'm basically doing nothing, and not doing anything.. trs finally, kita ntn movie berdua (aku ud blg sakit kepala, dia nanya mau plg, aku blg ga lah, nanti aj) n makan. nah, dia suruh aku plih makan.. karna ud sakit kepala, aku pilih food studio loh, kaya food court gtu.. cuman pas aku nanya dia, dia blg ga mau, trs aku tanya mau apa, dia blg ga tau.. and finally akhirnya ttp food studio and dia nanya aku mau makan apa, aku blg makan baso, and aku tanya dia mau makan apa, dia blg ga makan deh, minum quikie bubble tea.. x_x... even dia rasanya ga care aku mau makan ap dlm kondisi gtu.. and dia cuman comen, jdi kita seharian di senayan city?? dan aku tanya, mau makan kemana (its 8 pm) and you can choose.. trus dia blg, ga usah deh... plg aku anterin, trs dimobil nothing deep conversation and just a nrmal conversation and she is arrive safely... aku plg ke cikarang (sakit kepala malem2) trs sampe rumah masih bbm bentar, and dia blg dia kirim aku email... ini isi emailnya

Dear Deny,

Thank you for today.. Nice to meet you after a while..
I don't know whether u feel it/not.. But to be honest.. A bit of
dissappointment came @the end of the day.. I expected quality time
with u today--especially because we cancelled our plan for tomorrow n
u already knew that we will only have little time until u back again
to sing.. Too bad, u didn't prepare any plan or substitution plan for
me today or tomorrow/whenever..
U even haven't asked me about what happened yesterday.. Again... =(
Should I think that u don't care..??

Fyi, if we go together tomorrow, I already planned to have a 4-5 hours
of nice conversation with u that can't be replaced by phone calls.. I
was excited.. But now it's gone..

Well.. I know that u're unhealthy.. And I didn't blame u for
cancelling tomorrow.. I was just expecting more from u..

Have a good rest.. Get well soon.. Nite..
Happy Sunday..

Yours sincerely,

Shiela

aku baca yah susah mau balesnya juga.. cuman aku tau loh, kalo dia agak egois rasanya.. aku ya mikir, kok jadi kayak supirnya trs nunggu 2 jam, in return i give you 4-5 hours of quality time... knapa dia ga initiate? why must me? i know she is shy, tpi knp ga think that way too?? trs hari minggu aku ke gerja, tanpa dia, and i feel wow, never feel happy like this... and at the end, tadi aku ajak dia ngomong.. cuman aku alesannya LD.. but, you know what, she just ask so many question and i just become more ilfil, trs dia blg if i feel kayak aku ud ga ngerasa ngejer dia lagi, mendingan bilang aj.. but she will feel rejected by me.. well i just stick to my "stry" on LD.. trs at car, she says too kayak well most of the guys who want to me my friends only, regret it, and there is no 2nd chance... i told my self and say, well i wont even ask for 2nd chance... trus dia blg lah, kalo dia capek punya banyak temen co, tpi ga ad apa2nya.. dia rada curhat juga (and i feel bad) but this is my decision... trs dia blg, well you better think again, kita kasih dateline tgl 31.. aku just follow her plan aj.. and on 31, aku say that lets just finish for once and all..

.....thinking hard.. 


Updated 31 July 2011 = Its Over.. great!! :)


-dd-